with interpersonal relationships, particularly of the romantic variety.  My boy will probably just up and leave one of these days.  I’ve told him to.  Been dealing with ADHD/depression/anxiety ever since moving in with him.  He seems to think he deserves better, and of course that hurts.  But perhaps he truly does.  I feel like he complains about me a lot, really dislikes me. I’ve told him to go, find someone better, I don’t care.  I’m alright though: smart, accomplished, funny, pretty cute.  I’m just very callous.  I do not take care of his feelings enough. I feel like his dissatisfaction with me has had a hugely negative effect on my already floundering self-esteem.  The way things have been this semester, I’m not writing, I’m not accomplishing enough.  I’m barely keeping my head above water.  So, go.  I know it’s not quite rock bottom, because I still sometimes feel like I deserve love and kindness, but it’s pretty bad when I’ve really stopped giving a fuck about the relationship as an entity.  It’s just. So. Broken.

Ick.